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jeez ok it's been AWHILE since i've updated. uh, hi. sorry about the kind of several months cold shoulder, it wasn't intentional in any way! i've still been active online. just in different places (please add me on either of those places if you want, i miss you guys! username's still pannsie so ye).
i did end up ditching my university course in the end. it was a stressful process, but i managed to get into a visual communication course at my university, which i've been doing for the past month. it's fine! i like it! i don't want to make any other comment on it because that's what i was saying about my last uni course and look at how that turned out!! also everyone in the course is straight out of highschool and it makes me feel old. it's odd. i'm not used to feeling odd i'm literally 19 (for one and a bit more days at least ooooooh). i'm still the queen of procrastination hey what's new.

i got my driver's license! or, probationary license at least, as is the custom of my fair land. it's actually incredible how useful it is having a license and a car, although i still find driving incredibly stressful. it's almost to the point where i'm avoiding driving when i have to, but i'm trying to force myself into it, since avoiding the situation really isn't healthy.
also my car breaks like once a month and it got broken into. adult liiiiiiife~

oh, i'm going to japan in november! hopefully!! i don't want to jinx it but me and my best friend fully intend to hang out in japan for a few weeks in november. i have all the cash ready, and she's saving like an absolute champ. we're going to start finalising some stuff in the mid year break around june, but i'm also a little uncertain of how to do this! i'm just a young spud i've never planned a trip before! we're going to be massive nerds and are hitting the main loser places (tokyo, pokemon center, ghibli museum, cat island), but if anyone has any suggestions for me, please violently hurl them at me i'm all ears.

AND i've really gotten into steven universe. like, really, sincerely, truly. i love it. i love that stupid kids show with every fibre of my being and then some. it's so beautiful and sweet and it's just full of heart UGH I LOVE IT. i made a fan plush of one of the characters (lion) and did a giveaway with it on tumblr that got pretty dang popular, which was fun. but now more people want one! and i have no time to make more!! it's a little stressful to be honest, since it feels like i'm wasting an opportunity by not making them sooner, but i'm still grateful for all the positive attention i've gotten so far. during the mid year break i'm going to open the fuck out of a storenvy, and sell pre-made plush there, including the lion. i kind of don't have a plan for it yet besides make/sell shit, but i'm excited for it none the less! i still don't know where i'm going with my plush making, but i feel like this is an important step in figuring stuff out. it'll be great!

idk, i've been feeling a little lost lately. i don't really have any direction or reason, and i'm not depressed.. i think. but i can kind of feel my anxiety getting worse. i'll try keep a lid on it, but i have been considering seeing a professional about it. it's something i'm keeping an eye on.

last thing. my birthday's in two days i'm going to be TWENTY. goodbye baby teenage years hello.. whatever is next. i'm just going to go into the city and explore, then come home and eat rad food at a rad place with my fam. my friends are really busy with uni right now so i don't want to bother them! but yeah, it'll be nice. i'm excited. bring on the ninth~

we'll see how it goes

i'm having second thoughts about my design course. my plan right now is to stick it out until the end of the semester, while going to a few open days for some other places, and yeah. go from there

it's a shame; i really like the uni that i'm at now. the campus is great, the tutors are approachable. my best friend's there, i've made friends, i don't want to leave it. but i've got a few alternative courses in mind, and i've checked, my uni doesn't quite offer what i have in mind.

when i was in high school, and an acquaintance asked what i "wanted to do", the only answer i could really give at the time was that i wanted to help people. but at the time i was "the art student", like that was my defining characteristic. I was the girl that carried a sketch book around in year 8, who was arts captain in year 9, who always had something drawn on the corner of her paper and elected to do year 12 studio art as her early subject in year 11. i'm creative, and have a good aesthetic eye, but i don't have a passion for what i'm doing. hilariously enough at the moment it feels like an obligation to the people that believed in me more than anything. like i told one of my best friends from high school about my reservations and they said that it would "break their heart" to see me give up design
like bud calm down i'm not throwing my wacom tablet and sewing needles into the suns core holy shit

but yeah, like i said, i'll be really paying attention to how i feel over this semester. because as much as i enjoy being creative, being able to help others gives me a sense of fulfillment, and if i can't feel that while sketching up the newest concept for a nail polish bottle, then i don't know if it's something i can persue on a professional level
it feels too cold
there's no connection

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work rant shmerk shmant

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And oh yeah! On a much lighter note! Did anyone want to trade 3DS friend codes with me? I feel like I'm missing people. Mine is 1392-4862-6941~ Add me losers.

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Wow! I made something!

wools that"s a big picture sorry. doing posts from my phone is weirdCollapse ) A horrendously late part one of a two part commission for jadekitty777, which turned out to be one of the hardest plush I've ever made. Like, dang. I thought it wouldn't be a problem! But three head redo's and two body redo's later, yeah, it was tricky. Definitely a lesson in patience. It didn't make it any easier that I had sporadic work timetables, and just. Ugh. Some big mental roadblocks. Biiiigggg. But it's done! I wanted to give up a few times but I'm so glad I did now, because I'm quite happy with it. c: I wanted more than anything to finish it before Monday, since that's when my next huge week of work is (6 out of seven days working, most of them 8-9 hours), and idk yeah I'm just glad I met my little personal deadline. SWEET.</p>

I also have been doing well in the weight loss department, to my own personal delight! Today I clocked in at 105.7 kilograms, which ~officially~ places me in obese category 1. Which is a big difference when compared to six months - a year prior, where I was WELL into category 3. I'm consistently losing weight, which is awesome, and something I honestly never thought I'd actually do. TAKE THAT, PAST ME.

I'm also feeling massive pressure to buy a car, which is a bunch of butts. A little while ago, dad decided to sell his car, trading it for a environmentally friendly but impractical electric scooter, which I refuse to ride. We've still had mum's car and grandad's ute, but now he's going to sell the ute, leaving us with but the one car. If we lived in the inner city area, this would probably be no problem. A minor inconvenience at the most. But nope, we're in the outer suburbs, and public transport is a good backup, but NOT reliable full time. My older sister doesn't even have her learners permit yet, so hence feeling pressure to get a car. Which I would happily do, if they didn't cost every single dollar I have in my bank account. >:T Cars are expensive bro. I'm hoping no-one will show interest in the ute, so we at least have a back up, but it's still scary. :c

Also my laptop got a massive virus and almost died. Still waiting to hear back from that one.. GOOD.
And I pre-ordered the European ~special edition~ Animal Crossing 3DS, omg I'm so excited for it AND NEW LEAF. NEW LEAF. New leaf. Good things.

Whoops I was only going to post about the plush, but.. yeah. Sorry, I haven't updated in awhile. c': I'll try be more consistent with my updates. I've just been pretty busy the last few weeks. So, um, sorry! I'll hush now. I hope you're all good and all anyway. c: UNTIL NEXT TIME. <3

The timeline of my day.

9:30 am - Get excited over the prospect of my dentist appointment being cancelled.
10:50 am - Dreams crushed because the guy fixed the reason for my appointment to be cancelled. Stupid repair guys doing their jobs well.
11:45 am - Teeth filling.
1:00 pm - Discussions begin with eBay seller about getting the rest of the Venusaur-focused film frames that they have (I bought one and then discovered THEY HAVE MORE).
3:06 pm - Get text from Jade about Venusaur Pokedoll
3:07 pm - Sees post on PKMNcollectors and freaks the fuck out
3:15 pm - Friend appears for 40 minutes to give me my birthday present! (And barely cares about Venusaur Pokedoll weh. >( )
3:27 pm - WORK CALLS AND ASKS ME TO WORK FROM 6-9 TONIGHT, EVEN THOUGH I'M WORKING 9-6 TOMORROW. Why is that not illegal seriously.
4:50 pm - Buys all of the eBay seller's Venusaur film frames omg excitement.

AND NOW I NEED TO GO TO WORK THIS DAY HAS JUST BEEN AN EMOTIONAL SUPERMAN ROLLER COASTER RIDE HOLY SHIT.
SOMEONE HELP I NEED AIR.

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Quick update yay!

The interview went well! Both interviewers were very positive and responsive about the answers I gave to their questions, and seemed to approve of the questions that I had for them.

They said that I'd find out on Friday whether or not they'll employ my sweet tush, so. Umm. FINGERS CROSSED HEHEHEH. *foetal position*
They also told me they had to interview another girl for the position, so let's hope I was just more delightful than her and the probable other people they interviewed.

PLZ BE FRIDAY NOW.

BEST DAY.

Today was best day.
I got to just chill out with my best friend.
I got a JOB ~INTERVIEW~! 1pm on Wednesday; wish me luck!
And my babies came in the mail.

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Today was best day.

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JOINING THE GEN VI MADNESS OH GOSH

THOSE STARTERS ARE ADORABLE AS FUCK OMG.
I haven't been very into starter Pokemon for the last two gens, so I'm excited for the possibilities the grass and/or water starter have to offer. I don't include the fire one because I KNOW it'll be the ~cool guy~ of the trio, and that's just not my jam. Give me a nice fat durp. But omg I want to know the starter evolutions SO BAD. Since that's literally how I pick my starter so.
Also may I take a moment for TRAINER DESIGNS. I was 100% off the trainer designs in BW2, so I was worried about how they'd turn out this time around, BUT I HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT SINCE THEY SEEM QUITE DELIGHTFUL. I wish there were better close-ups of the girl character, but that will come in time. Besides, from what I've seen so far, I have nothing to worry about.
AND UPDATED GRAPHIC DESIGNS THANK GOD. The 2D/sprite world is cute and all, but continuing with that on something like the 3DS would've been so much lost potential. I'm all for this graphic change IDK IT LOOKS NICE.

I know we wouldn't get a Ruby/Sapphire re-make, and it's a little disappointing that it wasn't, but it's alright. I understand their reasoning entirely. A whole new generation of new Pokemon is more than enough of a great consolation prize though.
BRING ON OCTOBER I SAY.

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MERRY NEW YEAR

HI ALL.
CHRISTMAS WAS SWELL BUT BORING I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT HAVE A PICTURE.
FIVE STAR CHRISTMAS
I HAVE ALSO HAD SADS BUT I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THAT EITHER I JUST WANT TO DO THIS MEME LEAVE ME ALONE.

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